scrambled.

a scrambled mind with a scrambled heart.

but nothing could come out through this mouth.

i’m sorry.

happy birthday.

hef a good night,

 

 

 

 

 

with your lovely wife..

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Waktu.

Seandainya saja bisa kuhentikan waktu, setiap kita bersama,

karena dia berlari terlalu cepat saat-saat kubisa menyentuh wajahmu, merengkuhku dalam pelukan, dan merasakan nafasmu di kulitku.

I wish I could freeze the time, everytime I’m with you.

because it run too fast, everytime I able to touch your face, hold you in my arms, and feel you breathe on my skin.

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thoughts

my thoughts are mess,

the mind refuses to rest,

and the heart full of distress,

but eyes, have no more tears to cries,

ohh, my life is just a disgrace.

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Don’t give me those eyes

 

Staring at you naked

Hotel room in Vegas

I love you but I hate it

And we can’t tell anyone

Take this love and break it

I don’t think I can take it

Go back to him and fake it

Don’t tell him what you’ve done

But when we’re caught in this feeling

And I taste your love, and I taste your love

Whatever the meaning

Well it’s not enough, no it’s not enough

I want to believe in

In a thing call love, in a thing call love

Caught in this feeling

In this feeling, in this feeling

Don’t give me those eyes ’cause you know me and I can’t say no to you

We can’t have each other even if we wanted to

In another life, darling, I’ll do anything to be with you

We can’t have each other even if we wanted to

Don’t give me those eyes, don’t give me those eyes

Cross your heart and square it

Hotel room in Paris

Kills me that you’re married

‘Cause we know that should be done

But when we’re caught in this feeling

And I taste your love, and I taste your love

Whatever the meaning

Well it’s not enough, no it’s not enough

 

 

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berhenti.

aku mengenangmu semalam (kapan aku tidak), menelusuri kita, room karaoke, pasar modern, bola-bola ubi.

banyak hal ya yang belum sempat kita lakukan.

Angkringan babi, nasi goreng buatanmu, soju, planetarium, bioskop velvet, massage bareng, bathtub sex, oops! hahaha..

waktu kita sudah habis, meninggalkan banyak rencana dan kenangan indah.

satu yang aku minta, berhentilah berkelana, bahkan hanya sekedar raga, aku tak kan rela!

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fake feelings.

Mind,

I hate him for letting me go, I hate him for bringing me down, I hate him for not suffering as i am.

Heart,

Yeah, sure! Hate him as much as you can pretend be, if thats would make you feel better. but you know you can fake your feelings to me, right?

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idiots.

mind: hello heart, are you doing good?

heart: as good as the bye.

mind: there’s nothing good in the bye.

heart: so why they’re keep saying goodbye?

mind: idiots.

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